Confessionals.

[Karen O'Neil]

Confessional #1

So I've had a chance to talk to everyone in the game, EXCEPT Libra and one other girl I forget her name.

Other than that I've pretty much at least said a few words to everyone.

At this point I like the people in my room the most. Which would be Enzo - He's a nice, talkative and isn't afraid to say what's on his mind which I think is great. I talk to him whenever he's online. I can see us being close through the game since he's the most down to earth. Although I do see other chicks trying to reign on my parade with him and nope, I'm not having it.

Russell- He's a good nice guy. He doesn't say a whole lot when I do talk to him but then again I don't think him and I have established a common ground which makes it harder. The worst part about this is that I'm older than probably most of the cast so I think it's making it hard to communicate on certain levels.

Rachel - She's awesome. Young little teen girl but yet fun and talkative and at least she's around and active. She's very very talkative too once you get her going. So that's always a plus

People outside my room but in the Maroon Group.

James seems to be trying too hard to get our loyalty and it's almost at an annoying point. I think he thinks that I'm like a lot of other chicks and that he can ween his way into my loyalty by being all sweet and nice. Blah it's stupid I hate it.

Kalia is a good girl. She and I seem to get along great although she's not as talkative as Rachel there's a good balance with her and I think her and I will work well together.

Shelly was abrasive when I first talked to her so we'll have to see where that goes. I know when she gets voted out she's going to throw a fit.

I was finally able to talk to Cassandra and she seems nice enough so I'll just keep talking to her and see where that goes. Hmmm.

[Karen O'Neil]

So I'm trying to play the nice one so that people talk to me and not get any negative vibes from me. I'm staying as social as possible but really I'm feeding all my information to another player who I have a deal with.

We're basically going about this game in a double team kind of way. Hopefully it works. Oh by the way that person is Enzo. He and I seem to work really well together. Which is great. I love finding someone I just work well with and we're on the same page about everything. I feel like I can trust him so I hope this works.

I still haven't spoken to Jenn, but I imagine the only way I will is if I message her and I'm waiting for the right time. I really have no idea when that's going to be but I'm going to test her. I'm going to message her once and be all friendly and stuff and then she if she ever messages me because from what I hear she doesn't. Time to put her to the test.

I'm almost curious how many of these females are actually men because I get the sense some of them aren't actually woman and that gives me the creeps I think it should give the guys more of the creeps than anything though. Oh well. I'm straight up female so this bitch is WHAT they want to be. Hahah.

Enzo told me the other day that James said I was sweet one day and that I was like a robot the next so my mission today was to get him back on track with the sweet side of myself and I think it worked - mission accomplished.

I've been talking strategy with Drew only because I want to see where his head is at in this whole thing. Some of the others are just coasting, I can tell. They're not talking strategy or game with anyone other than our HOH, Enzo. Hmmm. We'll have to see.

[Karen O'Neil]

After talking strategy with Drew we've come to the conclusion that we are going to form an alliance. We talked strategy and that we need to have at least one of the vets in the alliance with us so that we can keep an eye on them. So that's good. We also are going to approach Rachel, and Russell with this alliance proposal and see if they're in.

So far I've only had the chance to talk to Russell and he's in, however I know for a fact he already has an alliance with Enzo so I'm guessing he's going to make multiple alliances which is okay but just something to watch out for.

I imagine that there's already a number of alliances in the game, especially this game. I don't know what to think about that because no one has approached me for an alliance so I don't know if I should be worried or if I should even give it another moments thought. All I know is that at this point I need to keep my eyes open, keep my friends close and enemies closer. At the same time I have to be the sweet heart blonde everyone wants me to be which I didn't think I could pull off but so far so good, at least I think? LOL.

I'm thinking that Enzo will be the vet we go for in this alliance and I of course have already talked to him about it and that's how I found out about the alliance with Russell. So... to me it sounds like Enzo is telling me everything as I am telling him everything. We are going to kick ass, I hope! LOL.

[Karen O'Neil]

Russell seems to be against the idea of having Enzo join the alliance. I'm not sure why but according to Enzo they already have an alliance so my guess is that Russell is trying to make allies with ever single vet if not every single person which is shady. He really doesn't give an reason as to why he doesn't want Enzo but he told me today that he thought having a vet at all was a bad idea and then not more than 5 minutes later he's suggesting Lori and pushing for her to be in the alliance.

Drew thinks it's shady too and said that he only trust me 100%. All I'm trying to do is put an alliance together and I can't get people to agree on shit, it's bugging me. blah fuck these idiots.

[Karen O'Neil]

So here's what I don't get. The two nominees have excuses as to why they haven't been around. One said he was sick the other had a death in the family. Do I believe them or do I smell shenanigans. I smell shenanigans. I tried talking to Libra and give my condolences but she was like whatever I just want to move on. Ummm okay, and why didn't Julie know about it, I'm sure she would have announced something like that so we knew.

Blah, I don't buy it. If she's lying it's a pretty low blow.

[Karen O'Neil]

The Mafia Alliance is official. It' consist of myself, Drew, Rachel, Russell and Enzo. My goal was to make it official before it was time to vote so I missed it by a few hours but still I would say I was successful.

I started a group chat on AIM so that we could all chat and come up with name so we could put in the request to have a group on the forum board. We all had a great time in there and really seemed to enjoy each others' company so I this alliance can pull through and furthermore I hope that we can all stay loyal to one another.

In talking with James, Kalia, the Mafia alliance it seems like the majority vote is for Libra. Bye Libra.

[Karen O'Neil]

There's not a whole lot for me to talk about in here. It's been rather slow, and then when I got sick I wasn't online really all day so I lost a whole day of talking with anyone but I did put in my status that I was sick so that everyone knew why I wasn't responding or around.

I'm hoping that this Mafia alliance can be loyal to one another however I still think that Russell pretty much has an alliance with or some sort of deal going with almost everyone in the house and I think him winning this HOH only proves that theory to be correct. So out of everyone in the alliance I would say he's the one I have my eye on. That's exactly why I wanted him in the alliance though. To keep him close by because eventually, if he has other alliances, he's going to have to flip on someone.

It will be interesting to see who he nominates.

I'm sure thinks will pick up tonight when everyone gets online. Right now though no one is but me. LOL. Oh and Jenn, whom I still haven't spoken to.

[Karen O'Neil]

So, I don't really have any targets in this game yet at all. I mean there's people whom I think are playing a good social game and I also think there are a few people who are just hardcore about this series and that's all find and dandy, I can handle that as I'm a hard core player when I have to be I just didn't expect drama to start so early.

Apparently, something is up with Kalia. She seems paranoid about Enzo. I mean I hadn't talked to her in 2 days and the first thing she ask me last night is if I talk to Enzo, and I probably should have asked Enzo what was up with her asking me that but I was caught off guard and said that I have spoken to him I didn't indicate how much or anything of the sort and she comes out and says that he said we don't really talk. I think to myself what is going on, why would she be like this towards Enzo or anyone? I mean we hardly talked game at all, we mostly just chatted about nonsense. Then she told me to be careful because he's playing a good game.

Okay, of course I'm going to be careful. ESPECIALLY w/ a vet player. I'm being careful with everyone and always keeping my eyes open. I appreciate her lookin' out but I don't think that was the reason for that entire conversation. I just don't know what to make of it.

At one point I did ask if she'd like to work together and I still have her back. The only reason she isn't in the Mafia alliance is because no one else really mentioned her as being someone they'd like to work with, at least not to me. That's not to say that they don't it might be something on the down low.

There also seems to be tension between Kalia and Shelly. I'm not sure I get that but I think I'm going to try and talk to Shel about it.

I wanted to fully trust Kalia and I did, now I don't know. If she was so willing to out Enzo like that how do I know that I can fully trust her. Ugh. I don't know who I fully trust anymore

[Karen O'Neil]

So this damn HOH screwed me. I'm so pissed of. I had a good rhythm going and was even walking around my house multi-tasking and still able to post every minute and then Rachel messages me and I lose track and miss a minute one lousy damn minute and it fucks me. Blah so pissed.

James came to me today with a weird question. He said "how do you like rooming with Russell, Rachel, and Enzo?" I was like "huh" because I truly didn't know what he meant. He meant the rooms we chose to sleep in, ours being the All-Star room. He said he couldn't help but notice that I was in a room with Enzo and Russell who have won HOH and not been nominated where as his room is half empty. I'm thinking to myself, gosh these people get paranoid over the dumbest shit. Kalia and her getting paranoid about Enzo and then now James. What is going on? I never made an official alliance with the Maroon group but I'm slowly beginning to think that they consider it one.

What am I supposed to do and how am I supposed to handle this, I'm not good at having all these alliances without getting caught. Someone always opens their mouth and I get the blame.
What do I do, seriously.

I have to really think about who I trust now and who I truly want to work with. I hate being shoved into alliances and I feel like that's what Kalia and James are doing about the whole Maroon camp thing. But what's funny is I don't think Kalia and Shelly get along so how is this even going to work? Seriously.

[Karen O'Neil]

Week 3:

So these twist can kiss my ass. Ok, I'm not as bothered by them as some others are. Some are livid and this pretty much is a waste of a HOH for Rachel other than having immunity. I went onto my phone through the proboards app and confirmed that Jen did indeed push the buttons, both of them, and Lori responded to her in the threads so Lori knows but apparently she lied to Enzo earlier. So dumb, she shouldn't have said anything in the "Button" threads. I swear these people must think that us newbies are pretty freakin' stupid. Newsflash, we're not. At least I'm not. Granted I don't know everything that's going on and never will but I'm not stupid.

Rachel is the most upset about the twist from what it seems. She is really taking this personal but I don't think it's as personal as she's making it out to be. Jen is just being Jen. I tried to talk to Lori but the moment I messaged her she logged out.

I mentioned to James, Kalia and Shelly that would should still try and stick together and no one has said anything to it. I'm going to approach all of them about this. I really want their opinions on it.

I think I'm going to finalize a final 2 deal with Drew. He always comes to me about everything and I trust him completely. At least I hope he comes to me about everything.

I will admit that I'm worried about getting possible votes this week.

[Karen O'Neil]

I hadn't prepared myself for Enzo being blindsided but I think I'm doing a pretty good job of doing damage control.

I think my assumptions were right, Russell told Lori about the alliance and Lori organized the blindside. I always thought Russell was the one who outed us since Kalia made her sneaky comments. I also had a feeling way in the beginning that it was Lori he outed us to. Based on the info Enzo shared with me once and my info that's what I think happened.

It sucks because Enzo and I usually make a great team in games so now I have to literally throw Russell and Rachel under a bus and move on.

The only person I trust right now is Drew. I'm not sure what else to do. I don't think me saying a few things in the thread is going to hurt me because I really didn't say anything mean. Just made things a bit obvious.

Blah. This is all a big mess thanks to Russell. What bothers me is that people are going to trust him when they shouldn't. However, I may need him for my plan to be successful. At this point all the vets need to go or one of them is going to get a repeat win in this game.

[Karen O'Neil]

Button 3.

So last night I decided to be like Jen and search everywhere for something, anything. I knew if you went to Jen and Lori's profiles you could see they posted in the button threads so I thought maybe if I went to Julie's she'd have some other thread she posted in so I just kept inserting numbers into her post search and it came up. At the time I pushed it, it had 46 or something views so other people knew where it was and I think Jen would have pushed it at his own convenience but I took that away from him.

He pissed me off because he insulted my intelligence by being so fake and lying about everything. I have news for him, you can't do that to me and expect me to sit around and be all blah about it.

Granted this puts a target on my back but at least mine won't be for lying to people.

[Karen O'Neil]

Who is Kristen and why is Jen accusing me of being her?

[Brian Hart]

Feb 10, 2012 9:50:38 GMT -5 Karen O'Neil said:

Who is Kristen and why is Jen accusing me of being her?

Kristen Bitting was the official triple threat of BBR. She loves to meet people, so her social game is on point, and she kicked butt in challenges winning 4 HOHs and 3 POVs. All the while, her goal was to have her F2 partner, Jessie Godderz, win the game. She played for second, yet played too well and won.

For more info on previous houseguests why not check the homepage?

bbrecycledhome.proboards.com/

[Karen O'Neil]

Thanks! I've been on the homepage reading DR of the vets I just never really read about the other players that aren't in the game.